Inside The Time by Tamsin Murray, An Excerpt
On the night after the last workshop I felt happy. I experienced a state of being where not one negative thought existed. A sensation inside my heart, body and mind arose as a feeling of complete magnetism, like the sun radiating warmth, and there are no clouds to bring an uncomfortable coldness. A great pleasure in breathing overtook me. It was love, without an external reason. In some moments I caught the entrance of thoughts that might obscure the state I brought my focus back to breathing and moved, so slightly that the subtle vibration re-activated the sensation. It dispersed the negative thought, as one would shoo a fly away. Concentration blazed like a warm flame. From one area in the body the other, I could sense the physical respond, as if the magnetism of the breath imbued the area with a breathing of its own. I chanted with my breath, until my eyes felt as if they were breathing the sounds through the optical tissue.
The limitation and separation we know to be our physical being changes. The body and the living force enjoin in an inseparable relationship, responsive to the subtlest suggestion. In this state a negative thought has an abrasive quality, which disturbs the unifying ecstasy, and interferes with the healing power of love, as it revives the whole being from a cellular level………. Forward, pg 9.
I wrote Inside the Time during a time when I travelled with Adnan for over five years without stop. He taught in so many cities and countries. My goal was to bring all the experience, all the teachings, all the methods and principals I had been able to absorb while studying with Adnan into a book. As I wrote the writing itself became like a meditation. If I wrote in truth I began to fall into a deep state, if I wrote from my ego the writing began to feel awkward and I did not feel good. When I finally completed it, Adnan sat with me afternoon after afternoon going through every word to refine it and be sure all the quotes and concepts were described correctly. He had people read it on stage in the summer workshops, which for me was incredible, because I could hear the rhythm of it and make sure it really worked sentence by sentence.
The book combines describing the methods, principles and techniques with personal experience. There is a chapter devoted to describing Adnan and how I experienced him. As well I could comprehend him.
To quote Adnan “Knowledge has to come in an environment of love.” For me Adnan was a teacher that became everything I needed, to grow in the right direction.
